I was down today. Thank fuck. I dropped to 148.5. I don't know what I would have done otherwise. I'm 148.4 right before bed so I should be below 148 by morning.
I ended up eating way more than I should have. I was doing fine until I went to my friends restaurant and ended up leaving with a burger, fries and diet coke. I got home, ate half the burger, and maybe a quarter of the fries before freaking out and tossing the lot. I can't remember eating anything else though. Once I got 'north' I did hit a Superstore as I had to pick up cat food and wanted to grab a salad or something. They didn't have any decent dressings and the only Greek salad was the massive one for $7. I opted for the $4 tray of raw veggies instead. Unfortunatly I decided I should have some chocolate too so I bought a tiny piece of the dark chocolate almond bark and a few ju jubes. thank goodness that it's bulk so I can at least take a tiny bit instead of buying a massive bag. I just need to stop going there altogether.
I ate half the veggies so I've got the rest for tomorrow. Planning on just tea for the drive to work, meeting ends at noon or so, have some veggies and hit the road with water and a diet soda. Once back home, go to work packing/cleaning etc. Day off at the gym I think. I'll need it. My legs will probably be quite sore tomorrow after yesterday, and my arms may need time to start feeling sore from today.
Tomorrow, just veggies for the day, with some veggies for tomorrow evening. Maybe some soup too? Dunno. See how the day goes. Ideally I would like to be 145 by Sat or Sun. Gives me 4 or 5 days to drop a few more pounds before we do the last measurements, and so I can get back on track and back in control.
Yup, another post of me obsessing about what I ate and what I will eat tomorrow and how I fucked up today. I hate it but oh, I so love the planning and analyzing.....
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Slow start, shaved heads and wine.
Today I was 150.1. I did some running around, late as usual as I slept in until 9something or other. I did get the CD, and promptly put it in. My favourites so far are JAR, Going to Pasalaqua, Cigarettes and Valentines (AWESOME song, but it really wasn't right for the time. I'm glad it wasn't released when it was recorded. I think musical history would not be the same. It's definatly a popish sounding song, not the raw energy that was needed when American Idiot came out) and of couse, 21 Guns. Know Your Enemy is special in my mind as I was at that concert and it was the 2nd song I'd heard them play live, ever. Just not a massive fan of that song. Almost the same with 21 Guns. It was overplayed and I think the music video killed it a bit for me too. Just listening to him sing it live is a completley different sound. There's a piano that works perfectly, and his vocals are incredible. If any one is reading this and want's a link, post a comment and I'll post one.
So, did all that shit and then went to the gym. Had a good workout, mostly legs and ass (as Shaun so delicalty put it) with 25 min elliptical to warm up and 15 min of the bike to cool down. Grabbed some wine and headed home. I did a whole bunch of almost nothing besides making cookies before heading over to Shauns. I wasn't expecting dinner but he was making spaghetti and I managed a small to medium sized portion, and then only one cookie after. Did indulge in about 2 glasses of red, and some fun stuff (hence the crazy blog update with rambling sentences), before we shaved my head. I think he was having far too much fun with it.
I had a blast though (and found out some interesting stuff..... like he thought while I was taking it seriously and wasn't getting anywhere it was frustrating him. He said something else but I forget.). We went through photo's, talked about body building, diets, exercise, friends, ex's, sex, strange neighbours.... so much. It was awesome. A good relaxing evening.
Weight? Well, over 150, but barely. Right now I'm 150.? so I"m hoping I'm below 150 by morning. Food for the day:
Tea, water for the morning.
Yogurt at 4:30pm. (35cals)
Salad, salmon and dressing at 5:30pm (170 cals. Damn salmon but I needed the protein :()
2 mouthfulls of chocolate chips (150cals?)
Half a G2 (20 cal. It says 20cals on the bottle, but there's 2 servings in each bottle)
Half a diet pepsi
4 cookies (tiny ones with splenda... so 200cals?)
Steamed veggies (50cals)
Spaghetti (400 cals?)
Cookie (50)
2 glasses Red Wine (200 cals)
Tea (what I"m drinking now)
Guesstimate total of around 1300 cals, burning off around 500 cals on cardio alone. That stupid spaghetti will set me back.
I'm tired. I should sleep damn good tonight. I want to get up early and hit the gym, then go return Dads' turntable as it's got a crack in it, then load up everyone and head to Calgary. I was thinking of going earlier but I may just go to the gym and not do Zumba in the evening, giving me an excuse to be later.
Sleep. Then deal with tomorrow.
So, did all that shit and then went to the gym. Had a good workout, mostly legs and ass (as Shaun so delicalty put it) with 25 min elliptical to warm up and 15 min of the bike to cool down. Grabbed some wine and headed home. I did a whole bunch of almost nothing besides making cookies before heading over to Shauns. I wasn't expecting dinner but he was making spaghetti and I managed a small to medium sized portion, and then only one cookie after. Did indulge in about 2 glasses of red, and some fun stuff (hence the crazy blog update with rambling sentences), before we shaved my head. I think he was having far too much fun with it.
I had a blast though (and found out some interesting stuff..... like he thought while I was taking it seriously and wasn't getting anywhere it was frustrating him. He said something else but I forget.). We went through photo's, talked about body building, diets, exercise, friends, ex's, sex, strange neighbours.... so much. It was awesome. A good relaxing evening.
Weight? Well, over 150, but barely. Right now I'm 150.? so I"m hoping I'm below 150 by morning. Food for the day:
Tea, water for the morning.
Yogurt at 4:30pm. (35cals)
Salad, salmon and dressing at 5:30pm (170 cals. Damn salmon but I needed the protein :()
2 mouthfulls of chocolate chips (150cals?)
Half a G2 (20 cal. It says 20cals on the bottle, but there's 2 servings in each bottle)
Half a diet pepsi
4 cookies (tiny ones with splenda... so 200cals?)
Steamed veggies (50cals)
Spaghetti (400 cals?)
Cookie (50)
2 glasses Red Wine (200 cals)
Tea (what I"m drinking now)
Guesstimate total of around 1300 cals, burning off around 500 cals on cardio alone. That stupid spaghetti will set me back.
I'm tired. I should sleep damn good tonight. I want to get up early and hit the gym, then go return Dads' turntable as it's got a crack in it, then load up everyone and head to Calgary. I was thinking of going earlier but I may just go to the gym and not do Zumba in the evening, giving me an excuse to be later.
Sleep. Then deal with tomorrow.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Hope
I need it. I cling to it. If I didn't hope I'd be well and truly lost.
I was barely below 150 this morning. By .3lbs. This has gone on long enough. Today was the last day of people buying me lunch etc. I had lunch with Shannon (salad which was fine but the twist bread was a major bad move) and then dinner with my parents (Ethiopian. I love it. I ate so much of it.) I managed not to go to the grocery store and buy cake as that is what my mind was telling me I should do. Instead I had a bunch of popcorn and Nutella. I'm .1lb over what I was last night when I went to bed.
I lose my trianer in 9 days. In 9 days I will be left alone for an unknown amount of time. I won't be driving 'home' every weekend, I'll be looking for a new place in a new city. I need to save money, desperatly save money, pay off debts. Hopefully in a month I will be able to work with my trainer again, but it will be a month at least.
Wow, that puts me around May.... What better way to celebrate May by finally getting to 131lbs and being able to say I lost 60lbs in one year.
This bullshit has to go away. I can not gain. I will not be one of those people who gain weight back. With me not seeing my trainer I won't get any ideas in my head about going 'healthy' etc. I want to be skinny. I'll work on the healthy after.
I don't ever want to sit in my car, disgusted, hitting my legs as they barely fit into my nice dress pants I bought just before Christmas. I may have lost some weight but I'm still barely into the 'normal' range. I still hate looking at myself in a mirror.
Tomorrow will be a new day. I will get up around 8am. Hang out and have tea, then shower and be ready to go by 9:30, 10am. Head down to my Dad's work with the record player, head to my old work to buy the new record player and the DVD/CD I desperatly want (and maybe Up In The Air. ) I'll come home and maybe make cookies, clean and then go back to my Dad's work with cookies for Jeff and the turn table. Off to the gym and maybe driving, don't know yet. I kinda hope not as I want to do some more packing. I'll have to find out first thing as I won't be making cookies if I have to drive at 5pm.
I also would like to go through my cupboards and get rid of as much food as I can. Empty cupboards are always good motivation.
Food plan tomorrow. I don't want to eat until after my workout, so 4:30pm. I'm hoping to have a max feed time of 6 hours, but I would prefer 4 or 5 and even then it will be limited. Steamed veggies, salad and perhaps some broth soup. During the day, water, tea, maybe some milk about an hour or so before I hit the gym. I need to buy more vitamin water and milk also.
I want to see how little I can eat for Tuesday, Weds and Thurs. Wednesday is going to be the tough one. I'm hoping I can get to the Zumba class but Steph may be unhappy about that. Thursday is the OM meeting for half the day so I should be able to avoid lunch and if I can't, just a salad. See if I can hit the gym Weds and Thurs. Basically overdo it this week in efforts to try to get back to 145. At least it will be in the right direction.
I'm most looking forward to emptying my cupboards.....
I was barely below 150 this morning. By .3lbs. This has gone on long enough. Today was the last day of people buying me lunch etc. I had lunch with Shannon (salad which was fine but the twist bread was a major bad move) and then dinner with my parents (Ethiopian. I love it. I ate so much of it.) I managed not to go to the grocery store and buy cake as that is what my mind was telling me I should do. Instead I had a bunch of popcorn and Nutella. I'm .1lb over what I was last night when I went to bed.
I lose my trianer in 9 days. In 9 days I will be left alone for an unknown amount of time. I won't be driving 'home' every weekend, I'll be looking for a new place in a new city. I need to save money, desperatly save money, pay off debts. Hopefully in a month I will be able to work with my trainer again, but it will be a month at least.
Wow, that puts me around May.... What better way to celebrate May by finally getting to 131lbs and being able to say I lost 60lbs in one year.
This bullshit has to go away. I can not gain. I will not be one of those people who gain weight back. With me not seeing my trainer I won't get any ideas in my head about going 'healthy' etc. I want to be skinny. I'll work on the healthy after.
I don't ever want to sit in my car, disgusted, hitting my legs as they barely fit into my nice dress pants I bought just before Christmas. I may have lost some weight but I'm still barely into the 'normal' range. I still hate looking at myself in a mirror.
Tomorrow will be a new day. I will get up around 8am. Hang out and have tea, then shower and be ready to go by 9:30, 10am. Head down to my Dad's work with the record player, head to my old work to buy the new record player and the DVD/CD I desperatly want (and maybe Up In The Air. ) I'll come home and maybe make cookies, clean and then go back to my Dad's work with cookies for Jeff and the turn table. Off to the gym and maybe driving, don't know yet. I kinda hope not as I want to do some more packing. I'll have to find out first thing as I won't be making cookies if I have to drive at 5pm.
I also would like to go through my cupboards and get rid of as much food as I can. Empty cupboards are always good motivation.
Food plan tomorrow. I don't want to eat until after my workout, so 4:30pm. I'm hoping to have a max feed time of 6 hours, but I would prefer 4 or 5 and even then it will be limited. Steamed veggies, salad and perhaps some broth soup. During the day, water, tea, maybe some milk about an hour or so before I hit the gym. I need to buy more vitamin water and milk also.
I want to see how little I can eat for Tuesday, Weds and Thurs. Wednesday is going to be the tough one. I'm hoping I can get to the Zumba class but Steph may be unhappy about that. Thursday is the OM meeting for half the day so I should be able to avoid lunch and if I can't, just a salad. See if I can hit the gym Weds and Thurs. Basically overdo it this week in efforts to try to get back to 145. At least it will be in the right direction.
I'm most looking forward to emptying my cupboards.....
Sunday, March 20, 2011
First Day Of Spring
Didn't really occur to me that today was the first official day of spring. The snow last night kinda killed that for me, and while there was very little snow left today it was still a tad on the chilly side, barely hovering around freezing.
I ended up falling asleap on the couch until 5am then crawling my ass into bed. Stayed there until 10am before dragging my ass out of bed for a quick cup of tea and a shower. Headed over to Shannons and we all went out for lunch. I made some ok lunch choices, it could have been worse, but that would have been ok if it had ended there. Instead I went on a bit of a binge. Once home I napped on the couch and then ate supper. Last time I checked I was 151.1. that's a gain from 147.7 this morning. I'll be lucky to be 149.9 or lower by morning.
Fack!
The damage from the run isn't too bad. My ankles really hurt, as do my hamstrings a bit and quads but no knee issues so far *knock on wood*.
The damage from today is far worse though. I barely had any water, instead having far too much diet coke, tea, fireside coffee and a half a vitamin water. My poor body... at least my metabolism should be working fine after this.
I'm missing being empty again. I'm missing being hungry, having only liquids and being in control. The IF was working, I just need to modify it a bit, lessen the time from 8 hrs, maybe dropping it to 7 then 6.
Tomorrow I"m out and about with Shannon again and we're hitting Moxies for lunch. Aiming for around noon. She says she wants to be done by 4pm giving me 3 hours to hit the gym, and shower before meeting my parents for my birthday dinner. We're going to the Ethiopian place in town as I love it. If I can manage it I should only eat the lunch (most likely a big salad, preferably garden with dressing on the side) and the dinner. For drinks, loads of water, a tea in the morning, and maybe a diet pop at lunch and a wine at dinner. After that we're going light.
I can't be this huge anymore. I see pictures of myself and am disgusted. It may be the first day of spring but that means that summer is quickly approaching. I certainly don't plan on wearing a bikini or even a bathing suit but it would be nice to be in the 120's by then.
I'm concerned about losing my trianer. I have him for a few more sessions then he's done. I don't know what will happen there. I'll still go to the gym, but will I slip with not working with him? I'm scared I'll put the weight back on, especially with living with my friend. I need to move, find a place, get settled, and hope that everything works out for my trianer so I can go visit him at another gym. I don't care if that's here or even further north. I'll travel.
I also need to deal with this recent laziness. This going to bed every night at 1am needs to stop. As does the sleeping until 10am. Also, and this is the most concerning for me, the napping in the late afternoon. I'm out for an hour sometimes and how is that helping me burn calories?
Intake today: (oh fuck....)
Spicy Chicken Salad (lettuce, grape tomatoes, some kind of shaved cheese, spicy chicken patty)
Lemon Garlic dressing (entire package was 100cal, I had maybe half)
Baked potato with cheese and broccoli dressing (yeah... thanks cheese. All to my ass I'm sure)
diet coke
Piece of carrot cake
Medium smartie blizzard with extra smarties.
small bag of mini eggs
handful of chocolate chips
4 prunes
steamed veggies (broccoli, green beans, cauliflower, carrots) with black bean sauce
whole wheat pasta and organic tomato dressing
2 cans diet caffiene free coke
2 cups of tea
1 cup fireside coffee (instant coffee with whitener and hot chocolate)
half a 10 cal vitamin water.
Ugh.... foul. I need to keep writing this down. the myfitnesspal app is no longer doing the trick. I'm just fed up of entering everything on there. I think writing it down will take me back to basics.
Calorie estimate for today? 3000? I have no clue.
I ended up falling asleap on the couch until 5am then crawling my ass into bed. Stayed there until 10am before dragging my ass out of bed for a quick cup of tea and a shower. Headed over to Shannons and we all went out for lunch. I made some ok lunch choices, it could have been worse, but that would have been ok if it had ended there. Instead I went on a bit of a binge. Once home I napped on the couch and then ate supper. Last time I checked I was 151.1. that's a gain from 147.7 this morning. I'll be lucky to be 149.9 or lower by morning.
Fack!
The damage from the run isn't too bad. My ankles really hurt, as do my hamstrings a bit and quads but no knee issues so far *knock on wood*.
The damage from today is far worse though. I barely had any water, instead having far too much diet coke, tea, fireside coffee and a half a vitamin water. My poor body... at least my metabolism should be working fine after this.
I'm missing being empty again. I'm missing being hungry, having only liquids and being in control. The IF was working, I just need to modify it a bit, lessen the time from 8 hrs, maybe dropping it to 7 then 6.
Tomorrow I"m out and about with Shannon again and we're hitting Moxies for lunch. Aiming for around noon. She says she wants to be done by 4pm giving me 3 hours to hit the gym, and shower before meeting my parents for my birthday dinner. We're going to the Ethiopian place in town as I love it. If I can manage it I should only eat the lunch (most likely a big salad, preferably garden with dressing on the side) and the dinner. For drinks, loads of water, a tea in the morning, and maybe a diet pop at lunch and a wine at dinner. After that we're going light.
I can't be this huge anymore. I see pictures of myself and am disgusted. It may be the first day of spring but that means that summer is quickly approaching. I certainly don't plan on wearing a bikini or even a bathing suit but it would be nice to be in the 120's by then.
I'm concerned about losing my trianer. I have him for a few more sessions then he's done. I don't know what will happen there. I'll still go to the gym, but will I slip with not working with him? I'm scared I'll put the weight back on, especially with living with my friend. I need to move, find a place, get settled, and hope that everything works out for my trianer so I can go visit him at another gym. I don't care if that's here or even further north. I'll travel.
I also need to deal with this recent laziness. This going to bed every night at 1am needs to stop. As does the sleeping until 10am. Also, and this is the most concerning for me, the napping in the late afternoon. I'm out for an hour sometimes and how is that helping me burn calories?
Intake today: (oh fuck....)
Spicy Chicken Salad (lettuce, grape tomatoes, some kind of shaved cheese, spicy chicken patty)
Lemon Garlic dressing (entire package was 100cal, I had maybe half)
Baked potato with cheese and broccoli dressing (yeah... thanks cheese. All to my ass I'm sure)
diet coke
Piece of carrot cake
Medium smartie blizzard with extra smarties.
small bag of mini eggs
handful of chocolate chips
4 prunes
steamed veggies (broccoli, green beans, cauliflower, carrots) with black bean sauce
whole wheat pasta and organic tomato dressing
2 cans diet caffiene free coke
2 cups of tea
1 cup fireside coffee (instant coffee with whitener and hot chocolate)
half a 10 cal vitamin water.
Ugh.... foul. I need to keep writing this down. the myfitnesspal app is no longer doing the trick. I'm just fed up of entering everything on there. I think writing it down will take me back to basics.
Calorie estimate for today? 3000? I have no clue.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Completed :)
I finished the 6K run. It was much easier than I expected it to be, and while I definatly did it in under 43min (or right around that) it felt like no time at all. I ran almost all of it. I did some walking through the water stop as I discovered pretty quickly that it's very hard to drink a cup of water while running, and a bit on the massive hill heading up.
I'm going to hurt tomorrow. My legs will hurt, my hips will hurt and I'm pretty sure my ankles will too. Debating on wrapping them tonight.
I was up today, but only .5lb. I'm sure I"m higher now as while I certainly didn't binge, I ate a lot:
Had tea and water until 2pm.
Yogurt 35cal
Chocolate covered ju jubes (WTF did I even buy them? They were supposed to be a post race treat)
Salad greens with salmon, smushed boiled egg and 20cal ginger soy dressing. I added the egg and salmon for the protein. (300cals?)
Leftover soup (100 cals and I ate the broth with a few of the bits of pasta etc so maybe only 50cals) and a whole wheat bun, another 100 cals.
Post race I ate a bunch of trail mix (salt. Can't have my poor legs cramping/pulling tonight) and some dried fruit, maybe 200 cals.
Went to a friend of my step moms for the post race celebration and ate 3 pieces of homemade pizza (so low fat, thin crust, barely any cheese etc... These are runners!!!LOL) and 2 bits of chips with the homemade bean dip and a glass of white wine. That was probably most of my calories!
I just had a cup of tea to end the night.
I was 148.4 at my parents after the race. I don't want to look now, but I know I will.
I should be happy right? I was 190 this time last year. But I see the photos my Dad sent of me running and I keep thinking that when I dropped to 140 my face was thinner. Now it's chubby again. It's like that 10lbs went all the way to my face and neck. My belly is huge today, I'm hoping that's just water retention, or bloating or something.
Tomorrow I'll head to a friends house for lunch (she invited me over today but didn't tell me what time) and try to eat as little as possible. I stopped eating today around 1130 or so, meaning technically I can't eat till 4pm, but I may just restart it at noon and go until 8pm. Do the yoga and light weights in the morning, and hit the gym on Monday morning.
I want to be 'healthy' and eat properly, work out, gain muscle, do my friend and trainer proud. Instead that little voice in my head tells me it's not good enough, I'm not thin enough, I ate too much, I can do better.
And I keep listening.
I'm going to hurt tomorrow. My legs will hurt, my hips will hurt and I'm pretty sure my ankles will too. Debating on wrapping them tonight.
I was up today, but only .5lb. I'm sure I"m higher now as while I certainly didn't binge, I ate a lot:
Had tea and water until 2pm.
Yogurt 35cal
Chocolate covered ju jubes (WTF did I even buy them? They were supposed to be a post race treat)
Salad greens with salmon, smushed boiled egg and 20cal ginger soy dressing. I added the egg and salmon for the protein. (300cals?)
Leftover soup (100 cals and I ate the broth with a few of the bits of pasta etc so maybe only 50cals) and a whole wheat bun, another 100 cals.
Post race I ate a bunch of trail mix (salt. Can't have my poor legs cramping/pulling tonight) and some dried fruit, maybe 200 cals.
Went to a friend of my step moms for the post race celebration and ate 3 pieces of homemade pizza (so low fat, thin crust, barely any cheese etc... These are runners!!!LOL) and 2 bits of chips with the homemade bean dip and a glass of white wine. That was probably most of my calories!
I just had a cup of tea to end the night.
I was 148.4 at my parents after the race. I don't want to look now, but I know I will.
I should be happy right? I was 190 this time last year. But I see the photos my Dad sent of me running and I keep thinking that when I dropped to 140 my face was thinner. Now it's chubby again. It's like that 10lbs went all the way to my face and neck. My belly is huge today, I'm hoping that's just water retention, or bloating or something.
Tomorrow I'll head to a friends house for lunch (she invited me over today but didn't tell me what time) and try to eat as little as possible. I stopped eating today around 1130 or so, meaning technically I can't eat till 4pm, but I may just restart it at noon and go until 8pm. Do the yoga and light weights in the morning, and hit the gym on Monday morning.
I want to be 'healthy' and eat properly, work out, gain muscle, do my friend and trainer proud. Instead that little voice in my head tells me it's not good enough, I'm not thin enough, I ate too much, I can do better.
And I keep listening.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Happy Birthday :)
I am now one year older today. Does it mean anything different? Only in a number, but I know how much numbers mean to me.
I got my car looked at, hung around at my old store, went to Sobeys, and hit the gym. It was a short workout at the gym with only 20 min on the bike and then an hour with Shaun. I can't believe I have less than 2 weeks left with him. But that's a story for another day.
Towards the end of our workout he was joking about ice cream so after our hour was up we went off and had a blizzard. Once I downed that I headed home to try my creme filled croissants where I discovered to my delight that they contained REAL creme!!!! So I promptly ate both, minus the strawberries with their syrup. So delicious!
I went to the Home and Garden show, buying a beautiful necklace and a bag of mini donuts. I ate 4 mini donuts before running into a friend and I pretty much threw them at her in eagerness to have them off my hands.
Picked up my stuff for the run tomorrow and hit up my parents place. They gave me a cool necklace and a queen duvet which is awesome as they're so expensive. Won't be long before I can have a new bed :)
I basically stopped eating around 7pm, but I ate chocolate when I came home which kinda screwed things up. I can eat tomorrow at 1pm at the earliest, going until 9pm. Given that the run starts at 8pm I may want to consider trying not to eat until 3pm, giving me until 11pm. I did buy all that fruit so I may make myself a fruit smoothie tomorrow, just the milk for 90 cals and the fruit. Got coupons for the running store that is sponsoring this run so I may head there tomorrow and check out shoes.
I'm also going to continue to pack, as well as I desperatly need to organize my filing cabinet so I can do my taxes this week.
So tired. Good day overall :)
I got my car looked at, hung around at my old store, went to Sobeys, and hit the gym. It was a short workout at the gym with only 20 min on the bike and then an hour with Shaun. I can't believe I have less than 2 weeks left with him. But that's a story for another day.
Towards the end of our workout he was joking about ice cream so after our hour was up we went off and had a blizzard. Once I downed that I headed home to try my creme filled croissants where I discovered to my delight that they contained REAL creme!!!! So I promptly ate both, minus the strawberries with their syrup. So delicious!
I went to the Home and Garden show, buying a beautiful necklace and a bag of mini donuts. I ate 4 mini donuts before running into a friend and I pretty much threw them at her in eagerness to have them off my hands.
Picked up my stuff for the run tomorrow and hit up my parents place. They gave me a cool necklace and a queen duvet which is awesome as they're so expensive. Won't be long before I can have a new bed :)
I basically stopped eating around 7pm, but I ate chocolate when I came home which kinda screwed things up. I can eat tomorrow at 1pm at the earliest, going until 9pm. Given that the run starts at 8pm I may want to consider trying not to eat until 3pm, giving me until 11pm. I did buy all that fruit so I may make myself a fruit smoothie tomorrow, just the milk for 90 cals and the fruit. Got coupons for the running store that is sponsoring this run so I may head there tomorrow and check out shoes.
I'm also going to continue to pack, as well as I desperatly need to organize my filing cabinet so I can do my taxes this week.
So tired. Good day overall :)
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Rollercoaster
I feel like I'm on one. I love rollercoasters, but this one is not my flavour.
Today I woke up several times, not really getting a good nights sleep. When I finally got up I went to my doctors appointment, which turned into another waste of time. I wanted to ask about my shortness of breath after I kinda half assed got sick a few weeks ago (remember the snotty nose? That was about it) and about my poor knees that are dying. Dear ol' doc said that the shortness of breath is some kind of residual effect from the virus and can stick around for up to 3 months. He could give me an inhaler but I declined. He didn't give me chance to ask about my knees.
So I went home, attempted to start packing before I saw on my trainers facebook that all hell has indeed frozen over and the gym did do the retarded thing and lose all the trainers. They're hiring uncertified newbies at cheaper rates instead. Sucks for me. In 2 weeks I will lose my trainer. I have no idea what will happen. All I know is that no 18yr old bimbo is going to be my trainer. I know what good and qualified is like, I'm not going back now.
Went to grab more boxes, hung out and chatted with a friend, hit up Stupidstore and bought chocolate, went home and ate it along with a salad. Feeling sick I headed to the gym for some cardio before core class. By the time I was halfway through the core class I started feeling less puky though.
Training was fine. Mostly chest today so I'll be wonderful and sore tomorrow. I'm just so fed up of the aches and pains. My shoulders hurt, my knees hurt, my arms hurt and it's not the good muscles working pain. It's owie something is wrong pain.
Came home while debating for dinner. Did I want to do the sensible thing and have salmon, rice or multigrain pasta and veggies or go with just veggies and soup? The soup won...
Now I'm stressed. I was down to 147.2 this morning and while I"m not hitting my goal of 140 by tomorrow (yeah....) I was hoping for a 146 something.
The IF is working though. I am slimmer. My stomach is definatly flatter and I feel better. I am a little annoyed that I'm dropping so slowly instead of plummeting 10lbs in 2 weeks, but as long as this is sustainable for a short while. I am also eating a lot of junk. Once tomorrow is done I will focus on lack of junk for a few days at a time. There will be days where junk happens. Monday for example, when I hang out with a friend. But I need to control at least 2 days in between where I don't eat shit food.
I should be happy that in a week I have lost almost 3lbs.... but I'm not even close. Not until I get below the 140 mark,
then only for a short while.
I may be eating, but my head is still fucked up.
Today I woke up several times, not really getting a good nights sleep. When I finally got up I went to my doctors appointment, which turned into another waste of time. I wanted to ask about my shortness of breath after I kinda half assed got sick a few weeks ago (remember the snotty nose? That was about it) and about my poor knees that are dying. Dear ol' doc said that the shortness of breath is some kind of residual effect from the virus and can stick around for up to 3 months. He could give me an inhaler but I declined. He didn't give me chance to ask about my knees.
So I went home, attempted to start packing before I saw on my trainers facebook that all hell has indeed frozen over and the gym did do the retarded thing and lose all the trainers. They're hiring uncertified newbies at cheaper rates instead. Sucks for me. In 2 weeks I will lose my trainer. I have no idea what will happen. All I know is that no 18yr old bimbo is going to be my trainer. I know what good and qualified is like, I'm not going back now.
Went to grab more boxes, hung out and chatted with a friend, hit up Stupidstore and bought chocolate, went home and ate it along with a salad. Feeling sick I headed to the gym for some cardio before core class. By the time I was halfway through the core class I started feeling less puky though.
Training was fine. Mostly chest today so I'll be wonderful and sore tomorrow. I'm just so fed up of the aches and pains. My shoulders hurt, my knees hurt, my arms hurt and it's not the good muscles working pain. It's owie something is wrong pain.
Came home while debating for dinner. Did I want to do the sensible thing and have salmon, rice or multigrain pasta and veggies or go with just veggies and soup? The soup won...
Now I'm stressed. I was down to 147.2 this morning and while I"m not hitting my goal of 140 by tomorrow (yeah....) I was hoping for a 146 something.
The IF is working though. I am slimmer. My stomach is definatly flatter and I feel better. I am a little annoyed that I'm dropping so slowly instead of plummeting 10lbs in 2 weeks, but as long as this is sustainable for a short while. I am also eating a lot of junk. Once tomorrow is done I will focus on lack of junk for a few days at a time. There will be days where junk happens. Monday for example, when I hang out with a friend. But I need to control at least 2 days in between where I don't eat shit food.
I should be happy that in a week I have lost almost 3lbs.... but I'm not even close. Not until I get below the 140 mark,
then only for a short while.
I may be eating, but my head is still fucked up.
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