Shit....

Today was a fail. I ate way too much with my sister, which I then purged some of. Yup, once I got home I spent far too long bent over a toilet and brought up miniscule bits of my binge fest of a brunch.

Christmas party was wierd. I felt very out of place and while welcomed by the staff, not by the management. I was not part of their team anymore.

I was 141.7lbs this morning, 143.9lbs post purge, and now I just got home to see 146.4lbs.

I am a fucking whale. I've screwed this month up. How am I ever going to drop the weight for next Monday? Please scales, 144 or less tomorrow?

Sleep... must sleep. Crazy day tomorrow.